Monday, January 11, 2010
wow.. less than 11 hrs till o level results
damn it.
i'm very scared,freaking scared
i got a feeling that i'm going ite
shit! my parents will kill me
okay not only my parents
my whole family will be disappointed in me.
why didnt i had this 'timid' feelings last year?
maybe this is called 'you will never know the pain unless you poked yourself with the needle'
okay, i'm feeling the needle now.
and it's too late
why didn't i study hard last year?
why must i always be like this?
why am i always in this fucked up situation?
why?
maybe she had found someone le.
someone has gotten into her mind
sadly, it wasn't me
okay, why am i comfacting myself?
being friends is what i have in mind.
to get closer to her that is.
then let nature takes its course
however, looks like nature has taken its course unexpectedly
well, maybe it's not unexpected but just that i know little about her.
maybe it's not true love?
i dont know.
but she's tall enough
yes i know there's tall girls out there
but it is not easy to find a tall and 'decent' girl like her.
this will be hard for me to let her go, ironically.
i'm suspecting that she know i like her
but whatever happens, i dont want to lose a friend.
okay guys
all the best for your results later
if you need someone to cry with
i will be the one
for i'm prepared to cry the whole day
i regretted what i've done for the past year.
by not studying.
i have experience all this before
why cant i avoid it?
why must i, knowing there's a wall in front and i still bang it?
well sad to say i am stupid
i know all of you will say i am stupid
yes i am, i must admit.
okay this dumbass gotta sleep.
not point crying iver spilled milk.
lastly, i want to say that i swear that you dont have to go.
nights
Thursday, January 7, 2010
I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you
To late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same
I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us not you and me
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering
And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember now
Sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lips
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you I want to
-Mayday Parade
Sunday, December 6, 2009
hahahas
guess whose back?
yea, im back. from genting
had fun there
did alot of shit things
all of our timing had been change
at night, its our morning
morning, we sleep
sort of night life.
the trip was S-H-O-I-K - SHOIK!
altough i spent alot on food, but its nice
bought a total of 5 pack of cigg
hahaha
never in my life i bought a pack a day.
yea, genting was the first.
so it was an average of 1.25 pack a day.
wow, the cigg there is cheap
anyway, i think i kena the depression syndrome.
just reliase when i saw couples in genting,
but i will pull through.
move along sean
its her lost. you have nothing to lose.
so dont be afraid to move on
im not gonna becasue of one fucked up tree, giving up the entire amazzon
ok amazon sounds too big.
hmm, the entire forest. yea
aiyer
why must she affect my life?
who is she?
she's just a human
who do not have the right to affect me in my life.
so dont think about her
forget her
she's not worth for you.
but she's the perfect girl.
maybe the saying of nobosy is perfect is right
maybe her 'weakness' is relationship
argh!
why am i thinking so much?
im forgetting you
in fsct, i feel much much better.
WOOTS!
hahaha
i may sound very sacrastic.
well, im just stating what i feel.
since you just walked out,
i need not send you off.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
wow... noone knows my blog.
hahaha
its been so long
that i ever updated it.
anyway, really appreciate what life gave me
went through alot of things noone wants.
hahaha, a fucked up life i had
maybe it's destinated for me to have a miserable life afterall
prom was fun. espacially the dance, although i didnt really dance.
hahaha wish there's another prom.
prom ended so quick, its like in school only have the lesson.
ok im bored.
im fucking bored.
5 days to genting. swee bo?
then it will be heaven for me.
what im gonna do there is non of anyone's busniess
you left a message as a clue...
set me in the air, at the spot, where i've been anxious for you,
holding my head in my hands, you make me tears off my face,
from the message, you confessed that this is you can take,
i'm borken, tired
there ain't nothing left to say
i'm crying
didnt mean to watch as
YOU just walked away
just let her go
it's too far in motion
just let her go
my heart can gain control
it's too late
it's too far
you're leaving my behind
just let her go
just let her go
BYE
Saturday, July 11, 2009
wow..
its been so long since my last post.
haha
yes i'm lazy to post. muhahaha
its been 4 months
haha
i just wanna say
i'll wait for you. not matter what happens =D
o lvl is coming.
got to start revising,
ok enough on the com.
time to revise yeah.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
hey people =)
im back to post
hahas
went to east coast last saturday to build sandcastle
build so little and thought only one hour had past
but,the fact is tat 3hours had already past
omg
then the 'I' tower fell and became a mountain
nvm
after tat wanted to go to sentosa
but change of plans and we went to watch MARLEY & ME instead
and a 'fight' with hui xian
hahas hitting each other's stomach the whole day
and i think i gonna have diabetites soon
had the whole popcorn to myself
and mind me, its sweet, not mix
and sorry quennie for not doing much as one of the mayors
ha
sports canival is next friday
i shall make it a good one then
'GO RED HOUSE GO!!'
hahas
and its a big day for aPANDA, the day before sports canival
win le lo
17 le ma
hahas
had my results back
did BADLY.
my e maths results is like shit
nvm
no point crying over spilled milk
and today is TIGER's birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIGER
here's a birthday msg for you:
"roar tiger roar
dun ever roar back
or you'll detain us for the whole day
since it's ur birthday please dun get angry
roar tiger roar
may you love 5A more, and live long"
hahas
it's abit lame i must admit
well there's nth much to say hmm
i shall log off now =)
byes!!
Sunday, February 22, 2009
hi people
its common test week
its mugging time =)
hope i can mantain this mugging spree till after o lvls
tmr got a maths ARGH!!!
cant get anything to my head after much much pratice
am i a goner?
nvm, persever sean
50mins for so many topic
hahas
uncountable topics for a maths
its okay im leaving skool early tmr =)
for my last bball match of my sec skool career
hahas
sounds wrong but nvm
=)
okays
time to go back mugging
study hard
im falling to pieces
