Sean Hamilton =D

2010-01-11T02:47:00.002+08:00

wow.. less than 11 hrs till o level results
damn it.
i'm very scared,freaking scared
i got a feeling that i'm going ite
shit! my parents will kill me
okay not only my parents
my whole family will be disappointed in me.
why didnt i had this 'timid' feelings last year?
maybe this is called 'you will never know the pain unless you poked yourself with the needle'
okay, i'm feeling the needle now.
and it's too late
why didn't i study hard last year?
why must i always be like this?
why am i always in this fucked up situation?
why?

maybe she had found someone le.
someone has gotten into her mind
sadly, it wasn't me
okay, why am i comfacting myself?
being friends is what i have in mind.
to get closer to her that is.
then let nature takes its course
however, looks like nature has taken its course unexpectedly
well, maybe it's not unexpected but just that i know little about her.
maybe it's not true love?
i dont know.
but she's tall enough
yes i know there's tall girls out there
but it is not easy to find a tall and 'decent' girl like her.
this will be hard for me to let her go, ironically.
i'm suspecting that she know i like her
but whatever happens, i dont want to lose a friend.

okay guys
all the best for your results later
if you need someone to cry with
i will be the one
for i'm prepared to cry the whole day

i regretted what i've done for the past year.
by not studying.
i have experience all this before
why cant i avoid it?
why must i, knowing there's a wall in front and i still bang it?

well sad to say i am stupid
i know all of you will say i am stupid
yes i am, i must admit.

okay this dumbass gotta sleep.
not point crying iver spilled milk.

lastly, i want to say that i swear that you dont have to go.
nights

2010-01-07T00:49:00.000+08:00

I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you
To late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us not you and me
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering

And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember now
Sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lips
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you I want to

-Mayday Parade

2009-12-06T01:25:00.002+08:00

hahahas

guess whose back?
yea, im back. from genting
had fun there
did alot of shit things
all of our timing had been change
at night, its our morning
morning, we sleep
sort of night life.

the trip was S-H-O-I-K - SHOIK!
altough i spent alot on food, but its nice
bought a total of 5 pack of cigg
hahaha
never in my life i bought a pack a day.
yea, genting was the first.
so it was an average of 1.25 pack a day.
wow, the cigg there is cheap

anyway, i think i kena the depression syndrome.
just reliase when i saw couples in genting,
but i will pull through.
move along sean
its her lost. you have nothing to lose.
so dont be afraid to move on
im not gonna becasue of one fucked up tree, giving up the entire amazzon
ok amazon sounds too big.
hmm, the entire forest. yea
aiyer
why must she affect my life?
who is she?
she's just a human
who do not have the right to affect me in my life.
so dont think about her
forget her
she's not worth for you.
but she's the perfect girl.
maybe the saying of nobosy is perfect is right
maybe her 'weakness' is relationship
argh!
why am i thinking so much?
im forgetting you
in fsct, i feel much much better.
WOOTS!

hahaha
i may sound very sacrastic.
well, im just stating what i feel.

since you just walked out,
i need not send you off.

2009-11-28T15:48:00.002+08:00

wow... noone knows my blog.
hahaha
its been so long
that i ever updated it.
anyway, really appreciate what life gave me
went through alot of things noone wants.
hahaha, a fucked up life i had
maybe it's destinated for me to have a miserable life afterall

prom was fun. espacially the dance, although i didnt really dance.
hahaha wish there's another prom.
prom ended so quick, its like in school only have the lesson.

ok im bored.
im fucking bored.
5 days to genting. swee bo?
then it will be heaven for me.
what im gonna do there is non of anyone's busniess

you left a message as a clue...
set me in the air, at the spot, where i've been anxious for you,
holding my head in my hands, you make me tears off my face,
from the message, you confessed that this is you can take,

i'm borken, tired
there ain't nothing left to say
i'm crying
didnt mean to watch as
YOU just walked away

just let her go
it's too far in motion
just let her go
my heart can gain control
it's too late
it's too far
you're leaving my behind
just let her go
just let her go

BYE

2009-07-11T17:29:00.002+08:00

wow..
its been so long since my last post.
haha
yes i'm lazy to post. muhahaha
its been 4 months

haha
i just wanna say
i'll wait for you. not matter what happens =D

o lvl is coming.
got to start revising,
ok enough on the com.
time to revise yeah.

2009-03-04T17:33:00.005+08:00

hey people =)
im back to post
hahas

went to east coast last saturday to build sandcastle
build so little and thought only one hour had past
but,the fact is tat 3hours had already past
omg
then the 'I' tower fell and became a mountain
nvm
after tat wanted to go to sentosa
but change of plans and we went to watch MARLEY & ME instead
and a 'fight' with hui xian
hahas hitting each other's stomach the whole day
and i think i gonna have diabetites soon
had the whole popcorn to myself
and mind me, its sweet, not mix
and sorry quennie for not doing much as one of the mayors
ha
sports canival is next friday
i shall make it a good one then
'GO RED HOUSE GO!!'
hahas
and its a big day for aPANDA, the day before sports canival
win le lo
17 le ma
hahas
had my results back
did BADLY.
my e maths results is like shit
nvm
no point crying over spilled milk

and today is TIGER's birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIGER
here's a birthday msg for you:
"roar tiger roar
dun ever roar back
or you'll detain us for the whole day
since it's ur birthday please dun get angry
roar tiger roar
may you love 5A more, and live long"

hahas
it's abit lame i must admit

well there's nth much to say hmm
i shall log off now =)
byes!!

2009-02-22T14:54:00.002+08:00

hi people

its common test week
its mugging time =)
hope i can mantain this mugging spree till after o lvls
tmr got a maths ARGH!!!
cant get anything to my head after much much pratice
am i a goner?
nvm, persever sean
50mins for so many topic
hahas
uncountable topics for a maths
its okay im leaving skool early tmr =)
for my last bball match of my sec skool career
hahas
sounds wrong but nvm
=)

okays
time to go back mugging
study hard

im falling to pieces

VALENTINE'S DAY

2009-02-14T14:31:00.001+08:00

HAPPY VALANTINE'S DAY EVERYONE =D

2009-02-06T22:41:00.002+08:00

ITS BEEN MORE THAN A MONTH SINCE I LAST POST
OMG!!
my blog is dead
hahas
but i'll try to post every week
very busy nowadays
hahas

okay lets talk about today
i treated my family to a meal
now i know how it feels like to be the one paying
hahas
went to ikea to eat dinner
she msged me but i was eating and didnt notice till i walk back from queensway
yup, i went to the ikea at alexandra road.
the one tat ms phua say she saw me eating with my family
argh im not naughty la ms phua
just childish sometimes tat's all
hahas
lets go back to wad happen during dinner
had a very satisfied meal
cheap and nice
espicially the baked chicken which my dad ate
hahas
the rest was okay
didnt ordered meatballs today, cause my mum dun allow
argh i miss the taste of it when it melts in my mouth
okay lets dun talk about it or it'll make me hungry again
hahas
bought a knee wrap for my aching left knee
which i feel tat its the right time to use it
buy wad you need to use =)
okay i wanna sleep le
had training this afternoon
hahas
bye peoples =)

My world is BLANK . Without you, im incomplete . emotionless .

2009-01-14T20:42:00.000+08:00

today is a tiring day
rushed home from training after school to prepare for my guitar lesson
just reached home not too long ago

tournament is starting
first match on friday
playing with jurongville
too bad she cant make it
she has training
hope she can go for the other match =)

now waiting for her to reply
in the mean time, i'll go revise yeah
hahas
its study time seany boy
no more playing
no more slacking
no more time to waste this year

THIS IS FOR YOU, aPANDA :

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

2009-01-12T21:11:00.002+08:00

Hi
hahas
sorry didnt post for a very very long time
was very lazy

ok

today got my e maths and chinese o lvl results
chinese got c6 gotta improve to at least a B =)
as for e maths,
its uttering disappointing got b3
thought could get an A

i got a sentence to tell myself
Sean, you are stupid.

and im gonna prove my brain wrong.
i can do it.
i got the urge to study freaking hard

i wanna be on stage exactly next year
with my name flashed on the projector

and how am i gonna do it?
study hard, no more bball, no more playing

THIS IS FOR YOU, aPANDA :

You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I wad lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine.

(Silverstein - My Heroine) - the acoustic version is nicer =)

2008-12-05T16:17:00.002+08:00

hahas
sorry everyone
its been a LONG while since i last post
was too lazy =X

okay
i enjoyed myself in indonesia
everything was perect!! =)
woots
really had a great time there
thank you mike for being a nice and good host =)
and everyone else, darma, clavin, demes, jordy and you other guys
sorry didnt write ur name as i had forgotten =ZX
OPPSY
hahas

i missed her lots though i was busy enjoying myself in indonesia
=) i really do

then back to singapore
LAO SAI for nearly a week Zzzz
but i soon recovered
hahas

had trainings as usual

and had the MISSING MARATON which lasted for 7days
which wad ended ytd =)
hahas
i miss her lots
my 'missing her' the level was super duper high
hahas
haven seen her for about 8days already

OKAYS
gtg le
hahas
BYE~~~

2008-11-07T23:13:00.003+08:00

a summary of today =)

when to skool for the post exam activies
touch up abit on our presentation as our instructor say there's a bit to change
then stop doing at 9.15 to change to move off to TAKAshimaya
reached there, we were eyeing on the food =)
didnt eat breakfast today =D
we had a few sentence with the cold storage manager to know more about cold storage and we were off to do our assignment =D
met up with the rest at 1pm at the 'fountain'
and we can leave
i tag with zheng yu, wang da, eng wee and guang jie to best denki to play the car simulator.
instead saw the ps3 with nba09 and started playing with zy as there's ppl playing the car simulator
they all say the steering wheel is hard to control, but i find it normal :)
overall of 2nd for the race
hahas
then when home
nothing much already.
tmr going sentosa with hew jing, sharlyn, wei ting, clara and shi qi.

she didnt reply my msg
miss her lots
she didnt go skool today..
i want to tell you tat I MISS YOU!

GOOD BYE FEI ZAI!!!! I'll always remember you...

2008-11-06T15:06:00.007+08:00

in memory of fei zai

the dog which slept with me,
play with me,
is gone..
at 2.15pm at telok blangah street 32
all because of a FUCKING DRIVER!
HIT-AND-RUN
we dont know who the driver is.
and why must you hit-and-run?
dont you have common sence?
even me, only of age 16, know tat when you hit a person or an animal, you need to get down of the car and help. regardless of how serious the accident is.
but wad the fuck you did?
hit and then run?
why run?
no balls to face us?
the dog is also a living thing
if i ever find out who the fuck are you
you are going to be so dead, i promise . . . Angle Side Side HOLE (ASSHOLE)

2008-11-05T14:07:00.002+08:00

its been a while since i last post
SORRY
hahas
was busy studying E MATHS and CHINESE
well e maths i have confident tat i will drop it this year =D
only few ppl know wad's my critiria for dropping e maths =X
so i will not go into details wad my critiria is =)
yeah, hopefully dropping e maths this year then can concentrate on my a maths
hahas
chinese didnt really prepare
sleeping all the time =X
hahas
well found out tat the paper is slightly easier than the mid-year one
hopefully can get a 'b' for chinese

okay, its time for play time =D
i really miss her :)

2008-10-14T15:40:00.009+08:00

sorry doidnt post ytd.
was very tired when i reached home yeah
slept after bathing. (of course not immediately) =)

okays here a summary of ytd!

went to siew ling house with jab and yao kang
as we all are meeting at her house b4 we go, due to SOME reason.
left her house at 11am
hahas
went there by 188
raining as we are on the way
LUCKILY, IT STOP when we reach harbourfront interchange =)
and decided to go via the monorial
as we are walking from the beach station to siloso,
we saw Bpians
OMG!!
and hew jing sang the skool song as we approach them
hahaas so funny lo
went to find a place
along the journey for a spot, there are alot of our skool ppl la
amd saw ppl playing volleyball in the shelter
its lyk. wad the...
the ground so hard.. later fall.. aiya they like can le. dun care..
hahas
played volleyball then went into the water
siew ling damn scared la
keep graping zheng yu
or should i say clinging on him in the water as she do not know who to swim
hahas
then jab, yao kang and i decided to ps them
but zy saw us
so no choice
hahas
we, the boys, went to 'bully' sl
by splashing and pouring water at her
hahhas
then went up play volleyball
played with the ang mo's beside us
guess wad?
they are all pilots!! SIA's PILOTS!!
once my ambition =)
they are so funny!!
after playing went to bathe
and go vivo for dinner
ate pasta and go home

yeah tat's about it for ytd hahas =)

today nth much
went to skool late
hahas
overslept. was sleeping peacefully when i remembered i got to go skool for poa
hahas

tat's about it
BYES!!!

LOOKING FORWARD FOR THE NEXT SENTOSA TRIP =)

TIRED!!

2008-10-12T23:53:00.002+08:00

i'm very tired (yawns)
hahas
sleeping soon le. cause tmr going sentosa play
confirm will see alot of familar faces there
too bad she going on tues..T-T saded
hahas
will post on sentosa tmr
BYES!!
nighty nights =)

END OF EOY!! WOOTS

2008-10-11T11:42:00.001+08:00

like wad my title said, its END OF EOY!!!
muhahas slack time, play time & TIME for Sentosa=)

slept very late almost the whole of the exam period
except for some days cant take the sleepyness then sleep at 11.
so early. hai where's ur concentration sean? nvr study much then sleep le. =.=
hahas
didnt post ytd as im busy playing hahas
finally can use com lo. so play until forgot to post =)
met hew jing and siew ling ytd at 5 plus
thought wan to study at mac. in the end, play bball^^
then go skool as per normal.
after the papers when down to play bball till 1 plus then go jab house mahjong
hahas
then yk zia hu, feel vry bad la is i spot de plus, i not playing
sry yao kang
in the end yao kang lose all and jab and siew ling wi nas they share.
yeah then went home play =)

tat's about it
hahas
now going to play le
byes!!! =)